I listen to my own self

I have no idea what to blog about but I want to get at it again.

I have been incredibly moody/cranky/negative the last several weeks and I'm not really sure why. I have just really been struggling to feel happy or joy and anything in my life. My birthday was last weekend and it was nice. Heber sang Happy Birthday to me several time (he love to sing that song and will sing it whenever the mood strikes). I also got a new camera. We ended up getting this one:

I haven't taken much time to figure it out but I will post pictures as soon as I get a chance to take some.

Kids are growing and learning like they do. Heber's new thing (as of the last month or so) it to take everything possible out from where it should go. Then, in all his three-year-old attitude, he completely refuses to put anything back away. I have not idea what to do about it but it is making, Ben, my mom, and me all crazy. Yesterday  he took every book and toy out of the shelf in his room and put it all into a big pile in the middle of the floor- this happened three or four times! It is really getting ridiculous and it is such a huge fight to get him to even help put things back away.

Anyway, so I was talking to Heber about this and about how it is helpful if he listens to Mom and Dad so that we can all feel happy in our home. I told him it would be good if he could be better about listening to me. He looked at me and said "I just listen to my own self." I didn't really have much to say about that but it got me thinking about the value of listening to your own self. This is something that I really struggle with. I have such a hard time taking time to do what I need for myself. I feel like I am at work away from the kids all day and they need me whenever I am home. It is hard for me to put time to take care of myself. Yet I know that when "I listen to my own self" I am happier and then have the means to take better care of everyone else.
So... here's to listening to my own self so that I can get out of this rut of crankiness and negativity.

Now any ideas on how to get Heber to stop taking absolutely everything out of everywhere or at least get him to put it back away? I some day I just want to get rid of everything and be done with it. I think this weekend I will at least work on getting rid of some of the stuff and I think that will help.